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Post by Paul Lahote on Jun 24, 2009 21:09:28 GMT -5
He watched her set the blanket down, and once she was seated, he did the same. He did not want to sit too close to her, as he did not know where exactly they stood right now. They had a lot of talk about, and he didn't want to press his luck . . . she had come back to him, that was all he needed right now. "So . . . how was your mini vacation?" He was not asking in a condescending way; he was genuinly curious. He wanted to know what she had done, where she had gone, who she had seen . . . though he did not want to ask all these things for he may come off as controlling. He was worried she was with some other guy . . . but no. Not his Rachael. She was too decent to look for a rebound. He knew that. He knew her.
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Post by ♧Rachael Black♧ on Jun 24, 2009 22:52:14 GMT -5
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[/size][/color] When Paul sat down, Rachael was about to move over closer to him, but then he asked his question. Oh. She made a face, that looked like she might cry before almost tossing her self into his arms and kissing him soundly. After a few moments she pulled back. "It was not a vacation. I hated every moment of it, and would have come back sooner but I was afraid you'd be bad at me!" She admitted to him. [/blockquote] ((Icons not of my own making. Credit goes to 'Leah' of MP.)) |
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Post by Paul Lahote on Jun 25, 2009 12:32:37 GMT -5
Paul was pleasantly surprised by her reaction. He kissed her in return, passionately, not knowing how he had survived without her embrace for so long. When she pulled away, he kept one arm around her to pull her close to him, so that she was leaning against him. "I could never be mad at you," he told her in a soft voice. "I'm just happy you came back. If I had known that that was one of the reasons you stayed away for so long, then I would have tried to find you to beg you to come home." He wasn't trying to make her feel guilty; he knew that her leaving was the whole wolf thing. He didn't exactly blame himself either, since the 'wolf thing' was inevitable. What he did wish he had done, was try harder to make her stay. But perhaps it was a good thing she came back willingly, rather than being pressured to.
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Post by ♧Rachael Black♧ on Jul 1, 2009 22:48:10 GMT -5
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"You wouldn't have to had begged, you'd have me at hello. I would have seen you, and ran to you. I only stayed away because I assumed you'd be so mad. I heard you. . . .h-howl in the woods. Right before I left." She admitted. "I assumed it was in anger. You said anger made you change into a wolf. You did it so fast. . . .how could you not be mad at me?" She had assumed that was why he phased so fast, then anger at her made him do it. She didn't know all the details on how it happened. [/blockquote] ((Icons not of my own making. Credit goes to 'Leah' of MP.)) |
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Post by Paul Lahote on Jul 1, 2009 22:55:48 GMT -5
Paul wished he could some how turn back time so that he could relive his past few days, only with Rachael instead of without. If only he had known . . . he would not have wasted the time he spent without her, when they could have been together; and he would never get that time back. He was trying to focus on the present, but it was hard when the past was so preventable. Her comments and questions made him realize that he would have to talk about his feelings . . . something he did not like doing, but it was also something he did far more easily with her than with anyone else.
"I wasn't mad at you Ray. I could never be mad at you." He paused for a few moments, wanting her to understand the full truth of that statement, for he meant every word. "I was mad at myself . . . because there wasn't anything I could do to stop you. I wanted to, hell I would have gotten in my knees right then and begged you to stay, but I knew I couldn't do that. It frustrated me; seeing you leave made me realize that I may never see you again, and that . . . "Paul didn't want to use the word 'scared' "It just freaked me out." He needed to explain that agonizing sound he had made so that she would not be afraid of him. "I was howling . . . not at you, but cause I didn't know how else to express what I was feeling at the time. I was never mad at you, and I'll never be mad at you."
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Post by ♧Rachael Black♧ on Jul 1, 2009 23:03:19 GMT -5
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She hugged him again and held on, with her head in his shoulder as she spoke this time. "I am so sorry! I was just over loaded and couldn't think. I regretted leaving as soon as I was doing it. It wasn't my smartest moment, ever." She pulled back to look up at him. "But I am back, Paul and I am not leaving you this time. I just have one favor to ask. . . . next time, could you tell me first and then try to show me? I promise to believe you, but that night still frightens me. I was so worried for you and then for the poor little baby bears. I didn't want them to see you or their mother get hurt."[/blockquote] ((Icons not of my own making. Credit goes to 'Leah' of MP.)) |
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Post by Paul Lahote on Jul 2, 2009 10:34:09 GMT -5
He felt a massive wave of relief when she said she was staying, and that she had no intention of leaving. He believed her completely. And this reassurance was exactly what he needed to hear to make himself feel more relieved. He kept his arms wrapped around her, though they were now looking at each other. "Ray, if I had tried to tell you that I could transform into a werewolf . . . I'm pretty sure you would have made me see a psychiatrist. I didn't know how to tell you. For some people, only seeing is believing." He wasn't always the best with words, and even if he had nearly given her a heart attack . . . it was far easier for him to just cut to the chase than try to ramble his way through an explanation of what he really was.
Freakin' bears. "Those bears were trying to attack you!" He couldn't believe she was so compassionate . . . no, he could believe it. And it was one of the many reasons that he loved her. "You don't need to be worried about me though. I'll be alright. Its you that I'm worried about right now . . . but you seem to be taking this whole, thing a lot better. Like I said, I can't blame you for leaving, I just didn't know how to bring you back." He paused, not wanting to make her feel any more guilty. "But I guess I don't have to worry about that anymore," he added, smiling at her.
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Post by ♧Rachael Black♧ on Jul 2, 2009 12:55:04 GMT -5
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"That poor bear was trying to protect her babies!" Rachael defended the mama bear. "And no, you don't have to worry about it again Paul. I am not leaving. I am home. . . to stay, this time." Which scared her. She was so afraid of becoming who she had been before. But this time, she would fight it, not let it happen to her. Be the person she wanted to be, not who everyone remembered her as. "I'm scared." She admitted, "About the things to come. The unknown, but I am not going to run from them. Not this time. This time I am staying with you."[/blockquote] ((Icons not of my own making. Credit goes to 'Leah' of MP.)) |
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Post by Paul Lahote on Jul 30, 2009 21:22:33 GMT -5
Oh god. Was she defending that damn bear again?! Paul loved her -- Rachael, not the bear -- . He thought that it was incredibly sweet of her to be so caring, and it was one of the many, many qualities that made him love her so much. He wouldn't say anything against the bear, not tonight. Maybe when things were slipping back to normality. He did however smile when he heard her refer to La Push as her home. He had always wanted her to think of this place as her home, and now . . . she was. "You don't have to be scared. I'm not going to let anything happen to you; I won't let anything or anyone hurt you." Both physically and emotionally. "I can't force you not to be afraid, but I can be sure that nothing will happen to you, that you don't have to be afraid of . . . all of this." He still wasn't sure what to call it, what she wanted to call it. The wolf thing? The phasing thing? Paul would not have to be specific though; she would know what he meant.
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Post by ♧Rachael Black♧ on Nov 23, 2009 16:10:37 GMT -5
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[/size][/color] All this. What did they even call this? Was there code or words she did not know? She sat there in silence for a few moments, thinking over all she would have to learn. Emily said wolves liked to eat, that worked, she liked food too so maybe if she learned more cooking that would be a start. And for the other things, such as wolf things, she had plenty of people she could ask, everyone knew before her! Her father, her brother, everyone! Emily and Rachael had never been close before this, but Kim and Rachael had been causal friends not very close. They all knew before her.
What did Emily and Kim do for the pack? Emily cooked, and Emily said Kim was big into the histories of the pack. So they both seemed to be doing jobs almost, to help the pack one way or another. What skills did she have? "So," She asked awkwardly, "The boys protect La Push, what do the girls do?" She had purposely turned the topic off of being afraid of the unknown and protection. She didn't want him thinking she was a coward. [/blockquote] ((Icons not of my own making. Credit goes to 'Leah' of MP.)) |
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Post by Paul Lahote on Nov 23, 2009 16:27:18 GMT -5
Paul chuckled at the question. "The women keep their men happy." That was rather vague, and he knew that she was looking for specifics . . . maybe. "The women give us wolves a reason to come home after a long night of patrolling, and a reason to be thankful that something good came out of this whole phasing thing." Paul knew that without Rachael, things would be a lot different. His temper wouldn't start to diffuse and he would not be as motivated as he was now. "Or you all can just sit there, looking beautiful and rooting for your guy," he added . . . somewhat jokingly. "But seriously, you don't have to do anything Ray. Its what I need to do for you that matters. You being with me is more than enough on your part. Now I gotta live up to mine. I'm gonna take care of you and protect you, no matter what that means." Now that she knew about monsters and such, he didn't want her to be afraid. He wanted her to know that he would die before letting her get a single scratch.
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Post by ♧Rachael Black♧ on Nov 23, 2009 17:17:41 GMT -5
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[/size][/color] Rachael felt her self blush and a smile forming but she pressed her lips together. It was easy to see however, she was holding back a smile, "How very old school of the wolves, just want the girls to sit there." She teased, "No, not going to happen, I want a job, I want some way to help out. I refused to be the girl who stands there in the corner, I was that girl in high school and I want to be more now. If this is who you are, Paul, then this is who I am. I want to be a part of it." No matter how scary it was.
"So, how can I help?" She wanted to do something for him, make him happy, help out. It could not be easy, it had to be hard doing all this, the burden along had to be crushing in weight but they all (Or the two wolves she knew) seemed to treat it like it was nothing. Like it was fun. [/blockquote] ((Icons not of my own making. Credit goes to 'Leah' of MP.)) |
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Post by Paul Lahote on Nov 24, 2009 10:36:26 GMT -5
Her dedication to him made him feel even more relieved and reassured that she was not going to leave again. "Ray, like I said, you being with me is helping me; its more than perfect. Leave all the dangerous stuff to us wolves," he said smirking and winking at her. "You aren't going to just be the girl who stands in the corner . . . you're so much more than that. You don't have to have a specific job to be part of this . . . you are part of it, and as much as I hate that you know the truth about certain monsters that exist, I'm glad that you know the truth, and that you're still here with me. I don't want you to be any more involved in the dangerous stuff and you aren't gonna be as long as I'm here."
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Post by ♧Rachael Black♧ on Jan 20, 2010 19:31:37 GMT -5
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[/size][/color] "So give me a job to do, Everyone talks about Emily and how much they love her and she is apart of the pack. I want to help to! I can help to! My brother and my--" boyfriends? "--you are important to me, and I want to help you two!" Even if it was only washing their clothing.
Rachael looked down for a moment before looking up, "How many other monsters are out there?" She asked wondering if there was more then just vampires out there. And even then HOW MANY vampires? and even scarier, how close do they get? [/blockquote] ((Icons not of my own making. Credit goes to 'Leah' of MP.)) |
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Post by Paul Lahote on Jan 20, 2010 19:58:56 GMT -5
Paul could not deny the fact that he had become much less volatile when he imprinted. That in its own was probably something his pack mates loved Rachael for; calming Paul down and getting him into less fights with the others. "Everyone loves you too, I mean, how could they not. You think I don't want you involved in anything? Think about Jake; he definitely wouldn't want you to do anything in this whole thing. He's mad enough that I had to tell you what was going on." Of course, Jacob's anger had more to do with who it was that had imprinted on Rachael. "I can't tell you enough how much you're helping right now. I wish you could understand that you're doing more than enough," he repeated. "I don't want you to do more than you have to." Paul was not going to change his mind about that . . . sure, Emily cooked, but he would not be spending as much time at her place now that Rachael was here, so in the end, it was all about Rachael, and it would always be about her.
She asked another question that Paul hesitated on. "None that you need to worry about. Whatever exists out there, they ain't coming to La Push, and if they are . . . we'll do something about it." He had already told her more than enough, he didn't need to frighten her with legends of other creatures.
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Post by ♧Rachael Black♧ on Mar 21, 2010 0:53:56 GMT -5
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[/size][/color] It was the 'do something about it' part that worried her. She didn't want to comment on that part, she wanted to ignore it and store it away for later use. She would have that talk with him one day soon, the one were she told him how frighten she was for his safety and how she wasn't sure what to do with out him. But today was emotional enough with out that; at lest for now!
Rachael put her hand down in the sand and flicked a small amount of it up at him, hitting him in the lower chest area. "You know what I want Paul!" She got up on her knees and looked (up) at him, with her hands on her hips and fighting to hold back her smile. "Emily cooks, and keeps record of all the stories. I have more tired to the pack then her, with my----"awkward"---bloodlines, and with you, and things---And my brother. I should have a job! Some way to help out the boys!" Yeah! "And if you don't help me find one, then I am going to make my self the official car driver and make all you ride in my car!" She leaned in closer, and tried to look like she wasn't joking. "You don't want to look like a bunch of brown clowns Paul! Leah would never let you hear the end of this!" [/blockquote] ((Icons not of my own making. Credit goes to 'Leah' of MP.)) |
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Post by Paul Lahote on Mar 21, 2010 19:39:17 GMT -5
He chuckled at her getting apparently frustrated with the fact that he didn't give her any way to help. "Ohh, I see . . . so this is some sort of competition?" He asked, still laughing at her, even though he knew she was trying to be serious. "Well, you don't even compare to Em, so you don't have to worry about that." It was true; she was more involved with this, since Jake was her brother and he was well, he was the one who had imprinted on her. His laughter only grew when she threatened to put them all in her little car. "Seriously Ray . . . one of us can barley fit in that thing. We're better off crawling, no offense." He wasn't trying to discourage her, but the thought of all of them driving around in her little blue bug was . . . not a pleasing image.
"Did anyone tell you how cute you look when you're trying to act all serious?" He said, taking one of her hands from her hips and pulling him closer towards him, until their lips met. Truth was, he didn't know of a job that Rachael could do . . . other than just being with him, and being the one who was going to eventually make him stop phasing. He didn't know what to say to her to make her feel better and more involved.
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Post by ♧Rachael Black♧ on Mar 21, 2010 19:47:35 GMT -5
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[/size][/color] 'Your don't even compare to Em, It was all Rachael could do to not let her expression change. She knew-knew in her heart-that he had not meant it in a bad way, that he was trying to complement her, but she had always had to fight her own self doubt. When he called her cute she relaxed some more. "I think I am just going to have a heart to heart with Sam, or Jacob." She joked still trying to appear serious. "Maybe they can give em better answers on how I can help out."
Sam scared her, and she would never admit it to Paul. She had admitted it to Jacob the other day, but she had asked he not tell anyone. Sam was so much larger in a way. No in body but in personality. It was was the strong silent type and while most girls dreamed of that type of man, in real life, it was scary. Also, knowing what happened to Emily, made her afraid as well. So many what IFs. [/blockquote] ((Icons not of my own making. Credit goes to 'Leah' of MP.)) |
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Post by Paul Lahote on Mar 21, 2010 20:12:29 GMT -5
Really? Was she really that determined? "You just don't give up do you?" He asked teasingly, shaking his head while still smiling. "Are you seriously gonna talk to them? Can I be there for that conversation?" He asked, thinking that it would be funny seeing their faces, as they tried to determine what they could suggest for her so that she wouldn't feel so left out. Then again, Sam would probably be a bit more serious about it then Paul was being right now. "Trust me though, they are definitely not gonna suggest that you drive us around in your car . . . they know better than that."
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Post by ♧Rachael Black♧ on Mar 21, 2010 20:31:44 GMT -5
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[/size][/color] "Jacob might." Though he would do it just to annoy the heck out of Paul. "Even Leah might." Again just to annoy the heck out of Paul. If Rachael was afraid of Sam, she was terrified of Leah. She wouldn't ask Leah anything, unless it was something she knew would please Leah. Like, would like you me to get you more cake, or do you want to tell Paul to take out the trash for me? But never,-ever- how can I be apart of the pack?
"No, you can't be there." Even though she wanted him to be, "I am going to--" Her face lite up then! Bright and happy! She knew what she could do! Something Emily could not do! Something none of the other girls could either! She knew how she could help! "I need to talk to Sam!" She might be afraid but she hoped she could sound confidante in this! [/blockquote] ((Icons not of my own making. Credit goes to 'Leah' of MP.)) |
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Post by Paul Lahote on Mar 21, 2010 20:59:49 GMT -5
Paul's curiousity suddenly spiked. Her entire demeanor changed, and Paul had to know why. "Wait . . . what? What are you going to tell him?" At first he was going to sulk over the fact that she wasn't going to let him go with her, but now he was so curious, he would follow her there to hear the conversation if he had to come. "Come on, tell me," he whined. He didn't want Rachael to do anything dangerous . . . there was a bunch of things that could happen, and though Paul always wanted to protect her, he knew sometimes it was more difficult than it should be.
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Post by ♧Rachael Black♧ on Mar 21, 2010 21:12:14 GMT -5
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[/size][/color] Rachael looked at him and opened her mouth to tell him but froze. This was embarrassing now. She shut her mouth and gave a nervous laugh, while looking at the ground. "It's ummm. . . . i just thought I had the computer skills and schooling to allow me to dig into the past better then most. I also have people in my life with the most knowledge. My Dad, my great- uncle. I would be able to build records of the wolves. Comparing bloodlines, to sizes and things."
"It sounds stupid when I say it out loud but it would give everyone allot of answers as to what to expect and . . . . " If it was stoppable. What to expect when it was over. Rachael wanted so badly for her brothers shake to wish this never happened, but part of her knew if it didn't happen Paul would never have been her's. Was she selfish for being glad this happened? She peeked up at him and gave a shrug before looking back down. [/blockquote] ((Icons not of my own making. Credit goes to 'Leah' of MP.)) |
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Post by Paul Lahote on Mar 21, 2010 21:18:09 GMT -5
Paul was utterly relieved! She wouldn't be doing anything dangerous; she would be doing more behind the scenes things and for that reason, he thought it was perfect! "Hey, I think its a great idea!" He encouraged. "No one would be better at that then you, since you are of course the smartest person in La Push." She had been one of the few who went away to attend college . . . something that not all of them really did. "And you like writing." Yup! Paul actually listened to her when she described her hobbies to him! "I love the idea. If you need any help, let me know." Of course, he was just being nice by offering. Paul's computer skills weren't good, and he would probably get bored easily with all that research, but still! He was trying to be supportive. "You should really come to the bonfires we have. You'll get a lot of info from those, since we talk about legends and our ancestors and their pasts and stuff."
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Post by ♧Rachael Black♧ on Mar 21, 2010 21:29:01 GMT -5
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[/size][/color] "Bonfires?" She asked and looked up at him. She had not known they talked about it openly. She was please that Paul seemed to know her passions! She loved writing, it was her favorite thing next to Paul and her family. She could express so much when writing, and sound confidant even when she wasn't. It was easy to think over the perfect wording, and make the best points and puns and toy with the words when you have time to think over them.
She couldn't be witty on the spot, but she could sound like the type of person she wanted to be when she wrote. She knew writing about the wolves could never be something she could publish, but sometimes even the smallest things would help in the long run. It would help the boys who fought for them, and the ones who loved her. That would make it worth it. Besides, she could always write on the side too, and try to get published. [/blockquote] ((Icons not of my own making. Credit goes to 'Leah' of MP.)) |
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Post by Paul Lahote on Mar 22, 2010 10:36:11 GMT -5
"Yeah," Paul began, thinking about how exciting it would be to have her come to one. It wouldn't just be him by himself . . . even though he hadn't really minded before, but clearly, his mood had been significantly better since he imprinted and he now knew what it felt like to have someone else with him for before, he didn't realize what he had been missing. "Its basically exactly what it sounds like. A bunch of us will get together, gather around a camp fire and just talk about the legends of La Push. Its where we learned a lot about the history, and give us a good background on our ancestors. We hear stories, chill a bit, and most importantly . . . eat." That was Paul's favorite part! But now, his favorite part would be sitting with Rachael.
"What do ya think? Would it be something you'd be interested in coming to? I don't want you to feel like you have to." She was after all, still rather new to all of this and he didn't want to push her into anything too fast . . . of course, he didn't really consider that when he tried to phase right in front of her, but now, he knew the situation was more delicate because he knew how terrible it felt when she had potentially left forever; he never wanted to go through that again.
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Post by ♧Rachael Black♧ on Apr 4, 2010 13:36:22 GMT -5
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[/size][/color] Rachael smiled brightly, "I would love too!" She said with laughter in her voice. It was exciting to think about and scary in a way. A chance to learn so much, and see the culture that she had been born into but never learned first hand. It was also scary in a way. In a small area surrounded by guys that at any moment could rip apart and turn into big hairy woodland creatures.
Rachael begin thinking of all the things she should learn there, and questions she should ask. "Is it just the boys?" She hoped Emily would be there so she would not be the only girl. Was she the only girl? Jared! Kim! Rachael had seen them, and knew the look on Jared's face. Knew it cause it was the look on Paul's. "Paul, did Jared imprint on Kim?" She wondered if Kim felt the same way as she did. [/blockquote] ((Icons not of my own making. Credit goes to 'Leah' of MP.)) |
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Post by Paul Lahote on Apr 6, 2010 7:50:28 GMT -5
He was very glad to see and hear that she was excited about the bonfire. "Nope! Everyone's there . . . Kim, Em, the whole crew. That's why I want you to be there too. Its the whole gang, and one of the only times that all of us are able to sit there together." Paul shrugged. He didn't care if they were all together or not, but he hoped it was something that would appeal to Rachael even more. He then chuckled at her question. "Yeah he did. Man, that was so freakin' random." Wait . . . that didn't quite sound right. "I mean, well it wasn't random random . . . it was just like . . . " Damn. Rachael was already having insecurities about his imprinting . . . he didn't want to make it sound impersonal. "You know what I mean," he said grinning, trying to quickly redeem himself. "But yeah, they hooked up."
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