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Post by Leah Clearwater on Dec 8, 2009 0:27:31 GMT -5
It was cold out, no snow on the ground yet but there would be. Leah of course was not cold, she felt just fine in her jeans and a tank top. Such was the life of a wolf. It could snow and she would be ok. She was sure some level of coldness would bother her, but for the moment, this was just fine against her cool skin.
Leah was laying down in a small meadow like opening in the woods, staring up at the sky. If that Alice was right (and she always was) then snow would start to fall some time tonight. Leah could hear the Cullens' voices fading into the night as they got further away for hunting. For the moment, she could just lay here, and clear her mind. Work on being calm, as being calm was the key to never phasing again. [Ness!]
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Post by ◇Renesmee Cullen◇ on Dec 8, 2009 1:01:27 GMT -5
Renesmee had broken off from the group, as they hunted. Yes Renesmee could use some food, yes she would LOVE to feed tonight, but she had something more important on her mind. Jacob. That's right, Renesmee was now 8 years old, and fully grown, her feelings for Jacob were starting to change from friend, to boyfriend. She had started to think of Jacob as well... hot. Just thinking about him got her all warm inside, and she was confused about this. She wanted to talk to her mother, or father or anyone in her family, but first she wanted to talk to a friend. Oh course her family were also friends, but she wanted someone out side the 'blood line' so to say. So off she went to find Leah. It was not all that hard to find Leah by herself on the floor. Renesmee was in jean and a heavy jacket, thought she did not need it, nor did the cold really bother her, her mother had made her. If she wanted to leave the house she needed a coat. "Leah?!" Renesmee asked running over to Leah, before plopping on the ground next to her only real friend. "What's it like to be in love?" Renesmee just said out not able to help her self. She just had to come out and say it. She had to know, and she wanted the truth, something she was sure Leah could give her. Renesmee always went to Leah for all of her Truth needs.
[/blockquote][/blockquote][/color] ((OOC::All credit goes to Leah+Rose from MP for making my posting layout. Icons taken from Google.))
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Post by Leah Clearwater on Dec 8, 2009 21:35:56 GMT -5
Lord. Love. A. Duck. WHAT!!??
Leah had not looked over at Ness until she was down on the ground and had spoken up, so when her head turned to look at Ness it was in almost pure shock. Her mouth hung open and her eyes slightly wide for a few seconds before she snapped month shut and blinked away the emotion. Well this was ironic. Ness coming to Leah for a talk on Love. Leah's one fling with love had ended with Sam imprinting and breaking her heart, leaving Leah wanting to hunt down and break the jaw of the one who first said 'it was better to have loved and lost' thing.
Still, Leah knew Ness would be asking about Jake. So she left she had to answer positively for her alpha sake. Besides, Jake was her friend, and he been real nice to her considering how much of a bitch she had been to him. She wanted to return the favor, she also never lied to Ness, if she could help it.
"Wow, I guess you think you might be love?" She asked but kept talking, "It's . . . . hard to explain, very girl feel a little different when she falls in love and even then there are stages and levels of love." Leah looked up to the sky and saw Sam's face as it had been when he was her's and they were happy. "For me it was like . . . . like I couldn't stop smiling. I was happy, fearless in his eyes. It left like the one thing I never had to doubt." It would have been too, had their wolven sides not came out and introduced imprinting. "Your thinking about someone?" Leah asking, knowing it was Jake. For Ness, it always was Jake. "Who could it be?" Leah teased, trying to keep the sad emotions from her voice so not to ruin this with her past. Let Ness be happy and in love.
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Post by ◇Renesmee Cullen◇ on Dec 8, 2009 23:20:37 GMT -5
Renesmee watched the shock on Leah's face. Wow. She figured she did just sorta come out and say it.... Maybe she should have set this up a little bit more. Maybe she should have lead Leah into this, rather then just coming out and saying it. But Renesmee just wanted to know, she wanted to know now, and she wanted to get it over with. She just wanted answers. That's it. "Well" Renesmee said with a bit of a shrug. That was the question of the day. "I dunno...." Renesmee said responding to Leah, as quick as she could. That's why she was asking the question. She has never like been in love before. So she wanted to know what it felt like, then if Leah answered her, then Renesmee could know of sure if she was in love or not. "Stages?" Renesmee asked rather confused. Renesmee listened just looking at Leah, watches emotions on her face. Just listing. so fair it sounded just about right. It sounded a lot like how she felt so fair. Safe. She felt like nothing could hurt her in Jacob's arms. She just felt, happy. Just okay. Renesmee just felt good around Jacob, nothing could break her, nothing. "Well...." Renesmee answered. "Yeah... I think I am in love with someone...." Renesmee said moving closer to Leah, to give her a big old hug. She knew Leah had a past, a past with Sam, and she knew Leah still loved Sam, yet Sam moved on..."But I dunno if it's love... I mean, he's my best friend of all times....and I can tell him anything, and I feel safe with him, and I'd cry if he ever left." Renesmee said a little confused. "But I mean I love him... he's like... I dunno... He's like right up there with my parents you know?" Renesmee said not sure if it was true love, or if she just loved him like a brother. But she did love him....
[/blockquote][/blockquote][/color] ((OOC::All credit goes to Leah+Rose from MP for making my posting layout. Icons taken from Google.))
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Post by Leah Clearwater on Dec 8, 2009 23:38:32 GMT -5
"You want to know how tell when your in love with a man, rather then a friendship love." Leah looked up at the sky her brows bent together as she thought over this. "I get it, every girl thinks about this when they are falling in love for the first time. Even me." Leah smiled, "For wolves, it's different then humans, or even half humans." Leah smiled over at Ness. "When I said stages, what I meant was you can learn to love someone more, the more time you spend with them. Kind of like how you love your parents more and more each day."
"For me, I guess it started with a crush. I thought he was cute." And boy had Sam been cute! "He had a smile that made my heart skip a beat, and he treated me like I was something special. From there I learned more about him and fell deeper and deeper in love. It got to the point I doubted I could life with out him. I loved him. I loved who I was around him. Love it like that kid, you change a bit, sort . . . . . .err, you want to be someone better for them."
"For wolves, it's deeper then that. More animal like in a way. When a wolf, or shapeshifter like Jake and me and my brother, fall in love. It's something stronger. Magic like. It moves the earth, and shakes the ground." Leah thought of Sam and Emily. "It's a wonderful feeling for that wolf." Leah was rather proud how she was keeping this positive. It wasn't easy, but she was doing it. "You know the second best part of being in love? You get to tell your friends all about it. Gossip and giggle and just be happy about it with them . . . . so spill Kid, who's the lucky guy?" Leah knew but she wanted to go this like girls, for Ness.
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Post by ◇Renesmee Cullen◇ on Dec 8, 2009 23:56:59 GMT -5
"Yeah... pretty much...." Renesmee said letting her head fall on the floor so she too could look up to the sky. That was pretty much what it was. She loved Jacob more then anything, but how did she know he was the one? How did she know he was the only one for her? How did she know she loved him as a lover not just a friend. "Oh" Renesmee simple answered. That made sense. "Oh." Renesmee repeated, her slight smile turning into a frown. As much as she wanted to hear this, she knew it was hard for Leah to talk about. As much as she wanted to know, Leah was more important then that. She could always ask her family or something. But Leah seemed to be almost happy about it? Like she was okay with all this now. Which was cool, but Renesmee just did not know how she felt about all this. She was just kinda there, she herd Leah, but she was getting lost in her thoughts. It sounded just about right. It sounded just like how she felt. Renesmee wanted to be the best she could be for him. She wanted to be with him, she felt safe, she was just in love, head over heels. But what was stopping her from letting her really just love him? Her parents. She knew her family loved her, but she also knew that they did not love Jacob as much as she did. Maybe that's why she was here. Who knows. "Who's the guy?" Renesmee answered a frown still on her face, still thinking. "Well he's Tall, really tall. He has brown hair, on the longer side, yet still short." Renesmee said letting her eyes slip closed. "He's really good to look at, if you know what I mean.... really big, like he can lift me with one arm, easy." Renesmee said. "He's Tan too.... all the girls love him...." Renesmee continued. "I mean I almost feel like he does not know I exist sometimes... his name is Mark. Mark Smith..." Renesmee said, 100% serious. Yes she was talking about Jacob, but she figured she'd fuck with Leah a little first. It would be kinda fun. "I mean I've talk to Jacob about him, and Jacob's no help." Renesmee said with a long sigh, just looking up to the sky. Waiting for a reaction from Leah.
[/blockquote][/blockquote][/color] ((OOC::All credit goes to Leah+Rose from MP for making my posting layout. Icons taken from Google.))
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Post by Leah Clearwater on Dec 9, 2009 0:11:56 GMT -5
Wait. What?
Who the fuck was Mark Smith?! Jake knew about this guy?! . . . . . . and he was still alive?!
Leah looked over at Ness with an odd expression. The emotion she had been trying to hide gone now, and left over was shock, confusion and anger. The anger was for this Mark Smith jerk face. When did Ness even meet someone? Wait, was she missing something?
Leah had once stood over a emotionally battered Embry and planned on kicking some white guy's ass for being with Embry's white girl imptintee. Leah had a brief mental image of her holding this Mark Smith's arms while Jake punched him in the gut, before her mind came out of shock mode and her wondered if Ness was playing her. Joking. "Mark who?" Leah asked her eyes narrowing and the anger slipping away. If Ness wasn't joking, she was hunting this guy down and removing him before he could do any more damage to Jake's happily ever after.
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Post by ◇Renesmee Cullen◇ on Dec 9, 2009 0:19:09 GMT -5
"Mark Smith...."Renesmee said sitting up. "I met him at the library a little while ago." Renesmee said acting just as confused as before. "I mean, I thought it was the whole love at first site thing, but Jacob told me that does not exist, and that this Mark guy was a bad guy, and I needed to stay away from him." Renesmee responded keeping the story going, she was going to milk this as much as she can. "But I mean. My mom and dad like him at least... though hes kinda old, but that's okay my father is 90ish years older then my mom, Age is just a number after all...." Renesmee said, picturing Jacob in her mind so she could have that look on her face. Her mother always told her she had a look on her face when she thought of Jacob. So she figured she;d think of Jacob hoped it helped her cause, or her joke. She would make this Mark Smith guy as much like Jacob as possible. "He's just so nice to me, he treats me like a queen when we are alone, though when his friends are around, I feel kinda lost in the crowd you know?" She went on, just thinking. Even know that was not so much true with Jacob, still his Wolf crap came first most of the time. Renesmee always had to fight with the wolf crap. But she understood. She knew that she could give up 5 minutes with Jacob so he could go save the town.
[/blockquote][/blockquote][/color] ((OOC::All credit goes to Leah+Rose from MP for making my posting layout. Icons taken from Google.))
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Post by Leah Clearwater on Dec 9, 2009 0:27:41 GMT -5
Leah was going to burn down this library with this Mark Smith in side it.
Or at lest, show up on his door step as a wolf and make him hide under his bed, like a five year old. Leah looked at the sky for a moment, thinking and planning. Mark Smith sounded like a white boy's name. "The Fork's Library?" Leah asked. "Old? How old?!" She was trying to get details in her mind, and then she was going to after him, in wolf form Jake would at lest see what she was doing and take some pleasure from her actions. Hell, he might even come after her and help. "ALONE with him?! Ness! You can't be alone with strangers! He might be some sort of freak! Mark Smith just sounds like a pedophile name!"
"Ness you gotta believe Jake when he tells you something. Your parents are not goods judges of people. They tend to forget that people are idiots 99 perfect of the time. Trust me, trust Jake, stay away from all men named Mark Smith."
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Post by ◇Renesmee Cullen◇ on Dec 9, 2009 0:48:18 GMT -5
Renesmee nodded with a smile. "Yeah Forks library." She added with another small smile. "I mean his not like that old he's only 7 years older then me. He's 14, like just turned 14." Renesmee said. "He's really into like fixing things, like Bikes and stuff..." Renesmee said with another smile, thinking of Jacob and only Jacob. "Leah!" Renesmee said offended, as Leah spoke. "I'm sitting her, telling you I might love this guy, and you...Arg!" Renesmee said pulling her hands in, holding them in fists. She then stood up and began to stomp away, with out saying anything more. She just walked away, before stopping mid step. Shaking her head, and turned around, a large smile on her face. "Don't you go telling Jacob on this Mark Smith guy, I don't want him to die for no reason...." Renesmee added, she was sure there was a Mark Smith some place in Forks, but she's never meet anyone. "By the way, I was kidding about Mark Smith!" She said. "Did you really think I was thinking of this Smith guy? Leah... come on!!!" Renesmee said sitting her butt back down next to Leah. Shaking her head. Leah had to be an idiot for believing this. She just let out a sigh, looking at the sky once more. And before she knew it, she was crying. Out right balling her eyes out, and for no apparent reason, just crying. Who knows why, she just was. Maybe it was the fact that she missed Jacob? Or that being who she was, was so hard, the unknown. The fear of loosing her parents of Jacob? Maybe the fear of the Volturi coming to check up on her again? Maybe who knows, but Renesmee just felt like crying so she did. It was not so much a im sad or im happy cry, just a cry, letting it all out.
[/blockquote][/blockquote][/color] ((OOC::All credit goes to Leah+Rose from MP for making my posting layout. Icons taken from Google.))
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Post by Leah Clearwater on Dec 9, 2009 1:06:51 GMT -5
Leah decided right then and right there to try and stop phasing as soon as she could, because being in guy's heads all day was making her think like them. She knew that by Ness' little mood swing. Leah wondered what she said or did to cause it.
Leah sat there for a moment before laying back down and sighing. "Wow. I blew this girl talk, didn't I?" Leah said and then laughed. "I was offended for Jake, I thought I was going to have to hunt down some creep and kick his as--butt." Looking over at Ness, Leah shurged, "Sorry for ruining your thing here. Sometimes, wolfs tend to let there emotions take things to far. We forget to think." Pulling Ness into a hug, Leah patted her back. "It's ok, kid. No one is gonna tell Jake." Leah just lay there letting Ness get whatever she had out of her system. Leah was damn glad there was no other boy, for Jake's sake. He had enough of being the second best from Bella, he didn't need it from Ness as well. Leah knew all about being second best and she thought that might be why she reacted so strongly. Maybe it was time to pay Emily a visit? See her kids, and make a few jokes? Could that be the key to moving on?
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Post by ◇Renesmee Cullen◇ on Dec 9, 2009 1:27:28 GMT -5
Renesmee did not really listen to Leah. She just let herself be hugged, and said nothing just cried a little bit. Just let it out. After a second she just pushed her hand upon Leah's face to show her the reason for her tears. She showed Renesmee that it was not her that caused the tears, but a thought she had not long ago. As Leah talked about Sam leaving, what about Jacob. What if Jacob got hurt? Not from leaving her, but getting hurt protecting her. She thought back to the battle they had when Renesmee was just a few months old. when the Volturi came to visit, when she almost lost her family. How everyone came to stand up for her, how she clung to Jacob's back. How her mother kissed her goodbye. How she did not know what to do if they came back. How she missed Jacob at this moment. How she wanted nothing more then to be normal. How she hated that just being alive put everyone around her in such danger. How she almost KILLED HER OWN MOTHER! She just got over whelmed with what she has caused in the past 7 years of her life. How frighten she was that someone from the Volturi would come check up on her, and it would turn into a huge fight, and she's loss someone in her family. That someone would die, like the last time. Irina. She still felt horrible for it. She still could not look at the Denali members, for she was frighten as to what she might see. Renesmee caused their sisters death. If Irina had not seen her, then she would not have lost her life.
[/blockquote][/blockquote][/color] ((OOC::All credit goes to Leah+Rose from MP for making my posting layout. Icons taken from Google.))
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Post by Leah Clearwater on Dec 9, 2009 1:48:03 GMT -5
Leah gasped lightly as Ness touched her face and froze. It still shocked Leah every time Ness did it. Maybe because Ness did it to Leah so rarely. With them, it seemed Ness liked to talk things out most times. Still, the times Ness did it, Leah often didn't know wither to pull away to sit there slightly amazed. When Ness was getting away from the Jake topic and letting her mind run wild over the Volturi creeps Leah reached up and pulled her hand away slowly. "Your afraid." Leah said, saying it out loud so they both knew it.
"Aw, Ness, You can't let that get to you, kid." Ness was no 'kid' now, at lest not by sight, but 'kid' was more of a nick name that Leah gave her. "I know the world is scary, but you can't live the next hundred years in fear. The Volturi are idiots and creeps. Maybe . . . . MAYBE . . . . one day they will come and check on you, but they are all about their freakin' rules. They will not--CAN NOT--touch you or any of us with out cause. Besides, the packs are bigger then they are. We could SO take them in a fight."
"Jake would never leave you, he might get hurt, or Gog forbid die, but I doubt it. Jake has always been slightly untouchable. It's his bloodline, kid, he is stronger, better then the rest. I don't think anything will bring him down." Leah meant that. She didn't see how there could be something else out there that could happen to the Cullens. "And he would never leave you for someone else. Did Jake ever explain imprinting to you?"
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Post by ◇Renesmee Cullen◇ on Dec 10, 2009 2:58:25 GMT -5
Yes! YES! That was it. Renesmee was horribly afraid. She was having some horrid nightmares, she's even cried in her sleep before. It was horrible! Renesmee knew that at some point the Volturi would come check up on her, and she just, she just could not have that happen. Jacob. That was her main worry, and her family of course. But Jacob, their feelings for each other had begin to shift from just friends to a little more then that, and Renesmee knew that Jacob would not stop fighting for her. She also knew that the Volturi did not give second chances, and Jacob would be killed the second he attacked. Renesmee listens and she did feel a little better, she at least stopped crying but she still had her fears. These fears would never go away, ever. Renesmee let her eyes slip closed as she sat pretty much in Leah's lap, being held safe. Leah's heat making her feel better, safer. Extreme hot or cold always made her feel better. "Le-leah?" Renesmee asked with a long sigh, as she got her thoughts together. She could forget about all the fear for a moment right? "I think I love Jacob...." Renesmee said with a sigh, like that was going to be a shocker. It was the first time she admitted it to herself or anyone for that matter. Though Renesmee had a bunch of other questions about love in general, she just did not ask them, though you could tell Renesmee had other things she wanted to say. Man, Renesmee was pretty much Bi-polar today. She must have gotten this trait from her father.
[/blockquote][/blockquote][/color] ((OOC::All credit goes to Leah+Rose from MP for making my posting layout. Icons taken from Google.))
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Post by Leah Clearwater on Dec 10, 2009 22:49:31 GMT -5
Leah felt her self slightly smile, "Yeah kid, I think you do it. Wanna know a secret?" She asked, but answered anyway, "I think Jake loves you back." Leah sat there silent for a few moments after that, thinking about everything. Ness was a lucky kid. Leah had wondered how fair it would be to Ness in the early days, knowing from the moment you were born you were meant to be with something. Leah had thought there was so much Ness would miss out now.
Now Leah envied her, never having a broken heart, never knowing betrayal and being alone. Leah wanted to imprint, more then her next breath, and that was partly why she was bitter and mean to some of the pack boys and Sam and Emily. She couldn't. She was broken. The exception to the rules. Leah had learned to handle the emotions better in the last seven years. She begin wondering about things, and wanting things. She wanted to be Ness' friend forever and ever; but she wanted to have her own family, and her own happily ever after more. It was like being stuck between a rock and a hard place. It sucked. "You should tell Jake about Mark Smith." Leah joked, "But I warn you, men react weird when jealous." Leah's brows bent as she wondered how much Ness knew about men. Not about sex and the act, but about how to act around a man vs how to act around a friend or a brother. [HAHHAHA! She is acting like Eddie boy! I <3 it!]
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Post by ◇Renesmee Cullen◇ on Dec 11, 2009 3:02:52 GMT -5
((Mature content is starting to be talked about here... read at your own risk.))
Renesmee let out a sigh, looking up at Leah, still holding Leah in the hug, she needed that touch, that warmth. "Yeah" Renesmee answered wanting to know a secret. She smiled, with a sigh as Leah answered. "Really?" She asked rubbing her one eye a little, trying to remove the tears that still lingered in her eyes. Leah spoke again, and Renesmee giggled a little. "I don't think he'd like that... He does not like me playing with other boys...." Renesmee said with a giggle. He took her to the library once, and Renesmee tried to read a book with another little boy and Jacob just did not let that happen. "I think Jacob would get really mad at me... and I don't want him to get mad. Unless your there with me." Renesmee said with a little smile, she let go of Leah, moving so she could see Leah a little bit better.
"But... ughh..." Renesmee said, sorta out of the blue. "I had another question." Renesmee said her cheeks starting to grow bright red. She opened her mouth to speak, but she said nothing, she was not sure how to word it, how to say what she was thinking. So rather, she fell back on her gift once more. She pushed her hand to Leah's face, showing her thing's she's seen around the house. Like hand holding, and sitting on each others laps, and hugging, and kissing, and a little...ugh making out, Yeah, Renesmee caught Emmett and Rose making out a few times. Renesmee wanted to know why, how what that was all about, and then Jacob showed up in Renesmee mind, with a question mark. Was that what she should be doing? More questions. How did Renesmee get inside her mother's belly in the first place? Images just flooded into Leah's head in a blur. Though Renesmee saw each and every image, each and every question, still Leah's mind was not as fast as a vampire's mind. Leah could not not see each and every image as it passed thorough Renesmee's hand at full speed. Every single why had been asked to Leah, every wonder every what are they really doing when they 'go home' kinda deal. Lately Renesmee has been picking up a lot more of the, sexual ques then she'd ever had before, and each image Leah got to see. Every look, ever word, ever giggle, everything that Renesmee saw, Leah did too. Of course Renesmee had seen nothing more then making out on the sofa, but that was enough to open a whole new door, filled with a ton of questions.
((She is half Eddie boy.. .so it's only fair. She does act a lot like Bella, if I do say so myself. ))
[/blockquote][/blockquote][/color] ((OOC::All credit goes to Leah+Rose from MP for making my posting layout. Icons taken from Google.))
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Post by Leah Clearwater on Dec 12, 2009 2:35:14 GMT -5
"Sure kid," Leah said when Ness had another question. Leah watched Ness' cheeks turn colors, going from the pale to the red. In the back of her mind, Leah knew then that this would not be a easy question to answer but she didn't know quite how bad it would be. Maybe Ness would ask about love, or loving. Maybe even ask about how to handle these new feelings. Leah was thinking about how to answer when Ness touched her, and Leah gave annother light gasp as suddenly she was seeing things again.
They moved faster this time, and Leah's mind missed some of them but she didn't really need to see them all. She knew enough with the first few to guess what Ness wanted to know. Touching. Kissing. Men.
. . . . Awkward . . . . .
Leah once again reached up to pull Ness' hand away from her face, so she could see the expression on Renesmee's paler face. It would be the expression that told Leah how to answer. If Ness looked to innocent and child like in that moment, Leah would give her a half answer and send her to talk to Bella, or Rosalie or someone. However, Ness did not appear like the child she have been a few short years ago. She looked like a teenager. When Leah looked that age (WAS that age) she had already had sex with Sam. "Ummmmm . . . . " Leah looked down at the ground, and gave an awkward chuckle. "You want to know about loving."
Leah looked back up at Ness. Jake was gonna KILL her, but in for a penny, in for a pound. "Ok, what parts do you want to know about? You showed me so many things. Hand holding. Lets start there." Leah looked down at her hand. "I don't know why, but holding hands with the guy you love . . . . just touching his palm to yours." Hand holding was ok, she could tell Ness to hold Jake's hand without Eddie coming after her right? "You should hold Jake's hand sometime. It's something best learned from the act of doing."
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Post by ◇Renesmee Cullen◇ on Dec 12, 2009 3:08:57 GMT -5
Renesmee's hand was pulled from Leah's face, which made her frown. Renesmee was not done asking, not done showing Leah things yet. But she figured Leah understood. Renesmee's cheeks were still a bright red, as if fresh blood was panted there. She could not help it. Renesmee looked at Leah as she chuckled. Oh god! Was all she could thing, before throwing her hands over her face to hide her extreme blush. "Youdon'thavetotellme,Icanaskmymother" Renesmee blurted out so fast it was said as one word. Her embarrassment growing. Though Leah was her only friend, friend outside the family, still, it was weird to talk about this. She's seen it on TV, the weird mother daughter talks, It was so weird. It was always less weird with it was with friends. Then again.. Leah was like a sister... Oh gosh! what has she gotten into? She should have waited to ask. Renesmee was so young, she was only just fully grown. She was not even legal yet. But still, Renesmee had to know. Someone had to tell her, and her parents sure as heck were not gonna do it. Shoot till this day when anything 'inappropriate' comes on TV, one of the Cullen's would change the channel or cover Renesmee's eyes. Renesmee may be a child, but her mind was much older then her body, much older then her real age. But Leah answered her question anyway. "But Why!!" Renesmee whinnied from behind her hands, though her fingers were apart slightly so Renesmee could see Leah. "Why... why do you hold hands....Why do people kiss? How do they.... what purpose is it for?" Renesmee said with a sigh. She knew it was to be close to the other. Touch was a very sensitive thing. But why would you hold hands, just to feel close? There had to be more. Hand holding lead to hugs leading to kissing leading to WHAT?! What next? What came after kissing? That's what Renesmee was getting at.
[/blockquote][/blockquote][/color] ((OOC::All credit goes to Leah+Rose from MP for making my posting layout. Icons taken from Google.))
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Post by Leah Clearwater on Dec 13, 2009 2:10:47 GMT -5
Leah ignored the HOW part of the question for now. Maybe Jake would be the best one to explain the how, but Leah knew she could explain the why with out causing one of the leeches to come after her. It would be a fine line between encouraging Ness to explore and crossing a line. (One of the few lines, Leah wasn't gonna cross.) She also wasn't going to let Bella tell Ness how to make Jake happy. Bella was an idiot when it came to Jake, and had caused him enough emotional pain. Leah saw Jake as her brother. While Embry and Quill were her pack brothers, and she would fight and die for them, Jake was also her friend, and she loved him the same way she did Seth. He was annoying as hell at times, but he was family. Leah wasn't going to let family get hurt again.
"To humans touching is something special. The human touch can comfort." For an example, Leah reached over and put her hands over Ness' which still half hide her eyes. Wrapping her fingers around her hands slowly, Leah pulled Ness' hands away from her face for about an inch. "When your embarrassed, a touch can make you feel less alone." Her eyes un focused slightly as she thought. "When your heartbroken, a hug can help you feel safe. When your happy and in love, holding hands makes you feel special." Leah blinked and looked back at Ness, letting go of her hands. "When your in love, a kiss can make you fly." Sam had been an amazing kisser, Leah could still recall how she felt. "A kiss. . . . a REAL kiss, not the pecks on the check, can make your heart speed up faster, and you just feel like your floating."
"And that is why people . . .and leec--Vampires-- do it. For the pure happiness and pleasure they get from doing it. When your love, then everything clicks."
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Post by ◇Renesmee Cullen◇ on Dec 14, 2009 0:13:26 GMT -5
Renesmee let out a sigh as Leah spoke. She could feel the hand upon her back, and she instantly knew what Leah meant. Leah pulled her hands from her face, and again, Renesmee understood. The look on Renesmee's face confirmed this fact. Renesmee knew what she was talking about, Renesmee FELT what Leah was talking about. She understood. She knew why people touched, she got that.... Before she just did the action, it made her feel good when she was sad, to get a hug. It made her feel good to lead on her mother. But she never really put two and two together, not until now. When Leah was finished Renesmee let out a sigh. Still interested in the subject, clearly she wanted to know answers, and she would get them. "but...." Renesmee said thinking now. "But why.... no...how.... why......" Renesmee said giving up on the words. Placed her hand on Leahs face to show Leah her question. Her question was just simply why. Tell me more, how do you kiss, how do you hold a hand. When hand holding leads to hugging, and hugging leads to kissing? what comes after kissing? Is that where is ends? Humans do it to feel warm and fuzzy inside? There had to be more to the Story. Renesmee knew she was missing something, but she did not know what that something was. She wanted to know the full story, not the lie. Kissing is the last thing she's seen, on Shows that's as far as her family would let her watch. Renesmee wanted to kiss Jacob, but she knew there was something more...something more she wanted to do, but she did not know what that something was.
[/blockquote][/blockquote][/color] ((OOC::All credit goes to Leah+Rose from MP for making my posting layout. Icons taken from Google.))
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Post by Leah Clearwater on Dec 16, 2009 22:58:35 GMT -5
"We need to work on your speaking skills." Leah said ash she pulled Ness' hands away from her face, again. She didn't mind Ness' power, but sometimes Leah just liked to pretend that Ness was human and not leech. When Ness touched her to speak, it made it hard to pretend. "Ok, ok, your asking so many, we might have to to this slowly, I can only tell you so much, the rest you might have to learn by trail and error."
Leah gave a short laugh, "Like all humans do." Then she chuckled again. "Sorry to laugh, but . . . you'll get it one day."
"The first guy I ever kissed lived up on the Makah rez. He was something else, let me tell you. A few years older then me and totally buff. I was in teen girl heaven! I had seen kissin' on TV and heard other girls gossip about it, but never been kissed by a guy. Not the way your asking me about. He was older, and had the experiences and one day at a basketball game after school we went off alone and . . . . . it was awkward as hell." Leah laughed, "But my heart went faster, and my palms were damn, and I was left smiling for days afterward. That is the why, Ness. Because the of the feeling you get, because it's fun . . . and because it leads to other fun things." Awkward pause. "Things that . . . . . well things that . . . . . and they are fun . . . . but they are . . . . . things." How did one talk about Sex with a kid?
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Post by ◇Renesmee Cullen◇ on Dec 17, 2009 2:45:44 GMT -5
"Sorry" Renesmee said in a soft response. So she was laying it on a little thick, she cant really help it. She just had so many questions, and knew so little, she just could not help herself. Her feelings were so strong, she just could not ignore them any longer and she wanted the truth, she wanted correct answers. "Trial and error?" Renesmee said a little confused and well sad really. She did not want to mess up. She did not want Jacob to think she was some kind of weird loser or something. Renesmee had always been smart, and she wanted to know everything. She did not want to go into this with knowing very little or nothing for that matter. When Leah chuckled a little, that only confused Renesmee more, in fact her face grew red hot but not with embarrassment, more with anger. She wanted Leah to just spill it all, tell it all. Renesmee wanted Leah to just say what was on her mind, just talk about it, in detail. Renesmee really did not want to have to go to her family for this, for she knew her questions would lead to a hell of a lot of things. Renesmee shut herself real quick as Leah spoke, but she did not say anything that Renesmee did not already know. "Stuff?" She asked. "What stuff?" Renesmee asked again, the stuff was what she wanted to know about. That's what she was getting at. She did not know how to ask what this stuff was because she knew nothing about it. All she knew was 'stuff' happened after kissing, and that's about it. What that stuff was, and why people did this stuff(beside the fact that it was 'fun') Renesmee had no clue. This is the answers she wanted. That was the question she needed to ask.
[/blockquote][/blockquote][/color] ((OOC::All credit goes to Leah+Rose from MP for making my posting layout. Icons taken from Google.))
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Post by Leah Clearwater on Jan 12, 2010 13:18:13 GMT -5
What stuff?! Oh, the leeches were going to KILL her. . . . . no they wont. Jake was going to do it for them. "Husband and Wife stuff! Stuff that . . . . you see in rated R movies! You know the parts were they are kissing and the kissing leads to touching and the touching leads to the chessey music and them falling into bed. That is were kissing leads! . . . .just with out music." And as for the trail and error question, "Kissing is nothing I can teach you, but i can get you started, kid, then from there you have try and see what works for you."
"I can teach you flirt, and to make Jake want to kiss you, but he has to be the one to teach you to kiss." Teaching Ness to flirt would at lest stop some of these Sex Ed questions for a few moments. "Trust me, you are gonna want Jake to teach you and not me. Kissing and the 'stuff' that follows if best learned from the guy." Leah stood up and looked around. "Stand up and I will teach you some moves."
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Post by ◇Renesmee Cullen◇ on Jan 13, 2010 22:13:28 GMT -5
What was the big deal about all this anyway?! Why was EVERYONE keeping this from her? Renesmee was an adult, well sorta. She was thinking like one, she should know about this 'stuff'. "With out music?" Renesmee question. Okay, well she's not alloud to watch rated R movies yet, so that did not help much. Falling into bed sounds right, music okay.... but still, something was just not fitting in her mind. She was still lost, still confused. She just wanted the plain truth. Maybe she should go to the library and pick up one of those romance books her mother never lets her read. But then if her mother found out, she'd probably be mad... but still, Renesmee needed to know. But would her mothers anger be worth the knowledge? "See what works for me?" Renesmee questioned again. Just going over it in her mind to make sure she got it all so fair. Yeah she guessed that made sense. They were all individual, so everything would be different. Things would not feel the same, so she'd have to get used to that, and just try it and see how it goes. Renesmee repeated a few words here and there still lost on the subject. She really was slow, made her feel bad, but she stood up none the less. "Moves?!" She asked with a sigh as she looked to Leah standing there a little awkward, but she was standing. Her arms were by her side just looking at Leah full of wonder and learning. She was absorbing everything, even though it looked as if everything was going in one ear and out the other. Oh yeah everything Leah said was going right in the long term memory place of her brain. She would think more on this later, when she was alone and her father was no where to be found.
[/blockquote][/blockquote][/color] ((OOC::All credit goes to Leah+Rose from MP for making my posting layout. Icons taken from Google.))
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Post by Leah Clearwater on Jan 15, 2010 0:47:22 GMT -5
"Yeah, moves are easier to teach. I can show you how to start it off, and then Jake can teach you the rest." Leah said, "Maybe you so read like, one romance novel or rent a ranted R movie before you do. Just something to give you an idea of what to expect. . . . from . .. . you know. . . . Jake, as man. . . . " Leah felt really awkward for a moment as she stared at Ness in silence. Did she really want the kid to learn about the birds and the bees from a book? How leech like.
"Ness do you ever feel warm when looking at Jake? Or when he looks at you? Really looks at you. Not just causal looking." Leah asked randomly. "Like you were blushing . . . . all over?" Leah wasn't going to get detailed, but she didn't want the girl afraid of Jake. When in wolf form, the guys would joke about how the wolves were 'animals' in bed. As in wink wink, nudge nudge.
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Post by ◇Renesmee Cullen◇ on Jan 18, 2010 13:26:01 GMT -5
Renesmee stood there complete lost. You'd think she'd pick this up a little faster seeing as she is half vampire. But this was just not sticking. The words she spoke sounded like a different language, one she has yet to learn. She was getting mad at her self for not understanding. She was beginning to think she'd never get it. not until it happened and Renesmee hated being unprepared for things. But she tried right?? "Read a romance novel??.....Rent movies?" Renesmee questioned, though she knew what Leah meant by that. "I don't think my mom will like that too much." Renesmee said with a sigh as she thought it over. It involved a lot of hushed yelling, then a disappointed look. Renesmee was in no mood for that. Why was this so hard. Why was this so hard to understand when everything else came so easy to her. Why was THIS subject so hard. It might have something to do with knowing nothing. Not a thing. Then a 'change of subject' Well sorta. "I always feel warm around Jacob." Renesmee said with a bit of a smile as she thought about it. Not only did she physically feel warm from Jacob's heat but she felt just, safe, warm fuzzy, just happy when she was with him. She just felt like no matter what everything would be okay with Jacob next to her. No matter what the world threw at her, Jacob would be there to catch it for her. Or so that's what Renesmee liked to think. Renesmee just felt okay with Jacob. With her parents she felt similar, but when Jacob was around, she was much more relaxed, much more... happy. Just in heaven. Jacob took great care of her.
[/blockquote][/blockquote][/color] ((OOC::All credit goes to Leah+Rose from MP for making my posting layout. Icons taken from Google.))
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Post by Leah Clearwater on Jan 26, 2010 2:39:05 GMT -5
"Yeah, that isn't exactly what I meant but awesome pun." Leah said with a laugh then ran her fingers thought her hair. "Oh, let's say I am Jacob Black." Leah struck up a manly pose, then dropped it feeling dumb after a moment. "And you want Jake to kiss you. Cause kissing is fun! So what do you do?" Leah winked, "You make him think the kiss was his idea."
"Men are simple things. They like to be in control, so women let them think they are. So I am going to each you to get men--Jake--to kiss you and for him to think it was his idea." It sounded allot more complex then the plan was. "First you have to know just how to look at him, and how to bat your eyes." Leah's face became different ash she tried to show Ness. "Just let your eyes look all over him! This tells him your thinking of him as a man and not as a friend or brother. With me?"
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Post by ◇Renesmee Cullen◇ on Jan 27, 2010 3:10:18 GMT -5
"Wha-... Oh." Renesmee responded slightly confused but she caught on quickly. She of course felt warm around Jacob he was a walking space heater. But still, Renesmee did not mean physically warm, then again she sorta did. Shoot she did not know what she meant, she just knew that Jacob was her light in the dark. When Leah spoke Renesmee felt like she needed to be taking notes. Like a kid in class or something. She listened. "His idea?" She noted, not sure how to go about that, but okay. She'd go with it. "Umm... kay" Was all Renesmee said, still lost, yet catching up. It was still just weird. This stuff was not very natural to her. Something must have gotten left out in her genetic make up. Who knew what that was. All she knew was she was missing it and Leah was going to help her find it. "Ugh" Renesmee froze as Leah asked her if she was with her. Renesmee was not quite there, but she nodded her head anyway. Yeah she'd catch up soon enough. she just had to remember to bat her eyes..or blink really fast? And look at Jacob all over not just his face. she could do that. When Renesmee caught Jacob without a shirt on, it was like Jacob had no face, for she never really looked in his eyes. So she'd just have to do that... when his shirt was on? Maybe. This was going to take a lot of work.
[/blockquote][/blockquote][/color] ((OOC::All credit goes to Leah+Rose from MP for making my posting layout. Icons taken from Google.))
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