So Hard, To Say Goodbye, To Yesterday

[Leah Clearwater]

The cliffs went straight into the water of the beach, however at low tide, there was a small cove of sand that one could sit on and be surrounded bay rocks, water, and wide open space.

Leah sat there now, on a yoga mat, with her legs folder and back straight, and eyes closed. She breathed slowly trying to think of things that angered her and remain calm. Move past the anger and to inner peace. Inner peace would lead to a werewolf free life.

Her cell phone made a beep beep, beep beep, sound and Leah knew the time for trying to reach inner peace was over for the day. Standing, she rolled up her mat and put it in her Yoga bag and then slipped on the bag on her back. Sam would be here soon. MAYBE.

She didn't know if he would come but she hoped so. She felt she owed it to him to tell him first. Leah had once been a happy, girlly girl who thought of a small wedding and children. She had dressed in cute things more then real life clothes and her biggest worry was prom, and how she was going to style her long hair.

Today, Leah didn't look the part of the prom queen. Taller, leaner, and harder then she had been. She wore loose stretchy pants, a tank top, both dark black matching her sun glasses. Her once long hair, was cut short. Very short. It came to her chin.

Her hair was something of a bitter thing for her. She had refused up till two days ago, to cut it much shorter then an inch below her shoulder. Now it was short. She had embraced the wolf in order to rid herself of it.

[samuley]

A large black wolf ran through the woods, his large paws barley touching the ground as he ran, ran flat out as fast as he could. Just running right to First Beach, Leah needed him, or so it seemed. Leah was in some kind of trouble, that's how he took her message. Leah needed him. Though he loved Emily, though he no longer loved Leah the way he once did, he was going to be their for her no matter what the cost. She needed him, and this was the best he could do for his former love. He came to the edge of the forest came to a hard quiet stop, almost hitting a tree in the process. He quickly became human and off he ran once again. There stood Leah, alone, hair short, sad. "Leah.... Leah?! I came here as soon as I could." He breathed a little out of breath, he continued to run, slowing to a walk when he was a few steps away. "What's wrong?" He asked as soon as he saw her face. What happen? Was Seth alright? Was Jacob? Was everyone okay? What had happened? Sam needed to know, concern filled his eyes as he watch Leah look out too see. What was she thinking? He wished he knew, well no he didn't yet at the same time he wanted to know. Wanted to help her. He was worried for her even. Frighted that something horrible was happening now, was about to happen or already did happen and he was to late. What was going on?

((I can't remember what this plot was about like when it took place and crap.... if I need to redo the post I can no big deal. lol Just let me know.))

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[Leah Clearwater]

Leah heard, and them smelled Sam before she saw him. He seemed worried for her or for something and she frowned her almost normal scowl before she forced it to smooth out. She was trying to move on, and she was happier, but still bitter over her lives events. She was working on moving on. . . and the events of the upcoming six weeks wasn't going to help it. "Calm down." Leah said as if he was over reacting. She liked the idea of him wanting to be protective of her, more then she should. She might want to hate him, and say things to make him think she hated him, but she still loved him. Always would. She had said the calm down thing mostly to try to annoy him.

"I just needed to relay some messages to you, some good news, some bad news, some . . . .annoying news." Leah said trying to keep her tone indifferent. She knew saying goodbye to Sam would almost break her. The thought of not seeing him ever again both broke her heart and excited her. She would always love him, always miss him, always . . . --But he wasn't her's to love, and miss anymore. "I didn't mean to make you get all jumpy. Just wanted to meet somewhere private so no one would over hear, yet public so no one could . . . yell." AKA, they had to control their tempers and note phase and kill each other.

[samuley]

"I am clam Leah!" He added a little annoyed. But that was Leah for him. Always trying to put him down and break him, but after that one day, well he would never let Leah get to him again, ever. He had gotten over it, he had found a way to move on. He had lived, and that's all that mattered. "Ah..." He said relaxing a little. "Well... " He said standing up straight, all Alpha like now. "Bad new first..." He said, preparation himself for a death or something crazy like that. Just waiting for her to get on with it. He was going to be strong and he was going to be an Alpha. He could hold his own, and he wanted to show Leah that she could no longer hurt him, that though he once loved her, he did not anymore. Showing her that yes, he promised her the sun and the sky, but went back on everything he told her. He knew this, but he was over it, thanks to Emily. He was over her, and though he sometimes missed life before his change, he still did not regret who he was, and what he did. He truly did love her, but imprinting was something unworldly. It was out of his hands. She had to understand that, and hopefully one day she would. His only wish for her, was he hoped that she could move on and find someone better, maybe even imprint on someone... if possible.

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[Leah Clearwater]

"Bad news. . . .right, brace your self." Leah said and took a deep breath while running her hand in her hair, which was shorter then she was used to and she had less to run her fingers thought, which annoyed her. "There something coming. It's big, and scary and we might all die."

Leah almost grinned but that might piss him off. Her words were from a movie she had saw two nights go. But her next lines were not from a movie, and were nothing to grin at, "It's an army. Leeches. They think the Cullens have broken some rule, and are coming to kill them. Jacob sides with them and---" Now or never, "And since he has made me his second in command I fight with him. Seth, too. They are calling reinforcements, good leeched-" Yeah right "-to fight with them, but the ones that are coming, are scary . . . .special some how."

[samuley]

"Alright...Done." He said before she could tell him the bad news. "Something?" He added, she did not give out too much info. All he knew was that whatever it was, was gonna try and kill them all... Great. But she answered it... Great... fucking blood suckers come to try and kill them all once again! these Cullens really pissed off the rest of the vampire world.... kinda funny, but sucks for him and his pack. Then again this is what he was born to do, kill vampires, and that's just what he would do. "And?!" He asked leaning forward a little wanting, no needing to hear the rest. Needing to know what to train for, what to prepare. Leah.... his....SECOND?! Wow. Sam did not see that coming... "Ugh congrats..." He added softly almost in passing.. okay good for her? "Okay.... so the Cullen's are bringing in friend's and lots of them... to fight some other... 'evil' vampires?!" Sam asked trying to get it straight. All vampires were evil to him, but whatever. "Soo why did the Cullen's do in the first place?" He asked, confused. Why the heck would he want to help the Cullen's. Well he does not, but then again he must stick with Jacob. They may be two different pack's but they had to have each others back. So that's just what he would do. "Well... no matter what it is that they have done. We will fight along side them as well...." Sam said. He had to stick with Jacob. He could not let his brother(and sister) fight and die. He could not go down with out a fight. So he would fight to he had to. "Oh and what are we talking about when you say special?" Sam asked all business now. No room for jokes, nothing.

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[Leah Clearwater]

Leah however was was into joking. It seemed after spending so many hours in Jacob's head she was picking up his sarcasm and wit, which wasn't helping her personality any. Now she came out sarcastic, and bitter more then funny. "Well, special as in worse then the rest. One can touch you and know every thought you've every had . . . .I almost want to shake his hand, so he knows mine." Leah had a few choice words for that one, mainly because she thought allot and most of it not nice. "Then there is a one kid looking leech who can make you feel massive pain from far away. And her brother who makes you feel and see nothing."

Leah thought about avoiding the 'why' question but knew she had to do it sooner or later. She didn't want him thinking she was trying to hide the kid from him. Leah had only help Ness a few times, but had watched from afar and see thought Jacob's eyes. Leah knew she would fight for the kid as well. Ironic, being she had started off planning to help kill her. "It's because of Ness. They think she breaks some leech rules, or something. She don't, there just full of crap!"

[samuley]

Sam snorted a little. "Like the bloodsucker will get close enough to touch!" He added shaking his head. Okay so they would touch, seeing as he had to rip the darn thing to shreds, but still...Leah should get the picture. "Weird..." Sam said shaking his head again. It was just soo not natural, he did not like it, he HATED It. Think like that should not live... and that's why he was here, to kill the darn things that don't belong. "Oh wait... so they are coming here to kill the thing?" He asked slightly confused now. Well, he was not sure how to think about it. He sorta like it, let the blood sucker take care of the thing, so he did not have to then Jacob could not be mad at the wolves... then again, by Nessie being killed, Jacob would die inside as well. So this was quite bad, but still he was not sure how he felt. He hated that they were coming here to Forks, then again, the Cullen's needed to be taught a lesson. Then again... This whole being the pack leader crap was hard stuff!!! he needed to think more on this. Talk to Paul about it too. "So theses.... bloodsuckers are coming to what kill the Cullen's? Because the monster kid breaks some crazy leech rule?!" Sam asked to make sure he had to straight. Okay... soo this just god odder and odder. All vampires needed to just die already, it would make life so much better. Darn home wreckers... that's all the Leeches were... home wreckers. But that's a whole new story.

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[Leah Clearwater]

Gritting her teeth in anger Leah almost walked away with the plan of ignoring him until he could learn to watch his words. "SHE has a name ya know. It's Ness. I think Paul is the lowest low when it comes to the brain totem pole but I at lest use his name." She almost walked away again. Let Sam stand there with no details and wonder what was going on. Leave his ass in the dark and see how he likes it.

"Look, you don't like the Cullen, I get it. Trust me, I've never been their biggest fan-" But she would fight because her pack would fight for them, and somehow, the little half breed girl--Ness--had won everyone over with in seconds. "-But they will gone soon, and then you can relax and work on that not phasing thing."

[samuley]

"Fine... Ness... she's still a Monster.... Even Jake say so... I mean look at the nick name he gave her!" Sam said with a bit of a chuckle, okay yeah, so now he was just pushing her buttons... but it was kinda fun seeing Leah mad, to a point of course. But He needed to stop playing around. Leah was serious... this was a big deal. "Yeah... it's about time they leave.... People are talking... I mean Dr. bloodsucker has yet to age, and he claims he's in his mid 30's?!?! Yeah I don't think so..." Sam said shaking his head. "Anyway... good new? and the other news...." He pushed on. He needed to know what was going on, and what was expected of him and his larger pack.

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[Leah Clearwater]

Leah's eyes narrowed at Sam's comments but she said nothing for the moment, letting him get it out. That alone was big of her, Leah's temper was the second most famous one in La Push, coming behind Paul (but not close behind, that boy could go off like a rocket). She was learning to move on, but the hell she was learning to let go. ". . . other news. . . yeah, Jake is goin' with them. Not that I blame him." Pause, "Who wants to stay some place where everyone you use to call friend looks at the live of you life like a scared up freak." Two could play at the name calling there. Comparing Ness to Emily was a low blow, but they were in public, Sam couldn't just rip into her.

"You want the best news, Sam?" Leah bit out. "Your never going going to have to see them all again. The man you once called friend, is leaving town and I hope he forgets to say goodbye. Don't expect me to say goodbye either." She paused for a moment before her voice faltered. Saying goodbye to Sam was harder then she thought. Telling him was harder. She still loved him in a way, but knew she had to let go, before moving on. Her voice was lower, held more stress then anger now. "I'm leaving with them."

[samuley]

"Oh?" Was all Sam could say about Jacob going with them. Sam kinda saw that one coming. Yeah Jacob imprinted on the it. Imprinted on the little monster thing, and Sam knew Jacob could not stay away from her for long. And well, it's not like the thing would stay here with Jacob, not like it could. Seeing as the thing would stop growing at 17ish or something like that. And people were going to notice that she and Jacob stooped growing, and that was against some crazy vampire law thing. So Jacob moving on with the Cullen's just kinda made sense. Anyway, La-push could only have so many packs... and Sam was not moving.... so Jacob kind of had to.... kinda. Sam was sad to see him leave, but he knew Jacob had to go. Question was, was the rest of his pack moving along to? Would Vampire and wolf live side by side forever? Would Leah and the Cullen's become buddy buddy?! Or was Leah leaving her pack and staying in La-push with him... Oh... stupid question. Sam knew Leah wanted nothing more then to never see him again, so of course Leah would Leave with Sam. Which was a little frighting, but he had no say in the matter.

"Whoa now... Leah. Uncalled for!" Sam said, his temper 100% in control. "Don't bring Emily into this." Sam said, he was getting better at taking blows from Leah. He was almost used to it by now. "She did nothing, and I am not the one would named her after a monster, that's all Jacob!" Sam added, his hands raised a little, in defeat almost. They would get no where if they kept fighting, so Sam would let that go, to find out more info. Sam just let out a sigh, still and strong. He would let that go to. "I don't think that's the best part Leah." He added shaking his head a little. "You may not want to say goodbye... but you have to Leah." Sam said trying to offer her some more wisdom, though he did not think she would take it to heart. "It'll be good for you to never have to see me again.... I know what it does to you, and I am sorry for that." Sam said a little softer. "But Leah, you gotta move on." Sam added looking her in the eye, for the first time in a while. No really look her in the eye, no hate no nothing, just a friend, almost. Sam wanted nothing more then for Leah to forgive him, or at least Emily. If Leah hated him for the rest of forever, that was fine. He just hoped she could forgive Emily. She had nothing to do with this. She had to love him, she did not have a choice.

"What about Seth.... is he going with you two?" Sam asked, wanting to know if he would have to 'adopt' Seth, so to say. Sam was more then happy to take Seth up, more then happy to have Seth back, he was just a crazy little kid. Sam always liked Seth. But he would be sad to see him go. Then again that was life. People moved on, Jacob would leave he knew that.... Leah would go too. Leah finally found where she fit. She may not love the Cullen's but it was better then being with himself. Sam knew that Leah hated being in Sam's head, knew that Leah hated him with a passion, but that was behind him now. Emily and Sam were going to get married soon, and start their lives together. Leah would only be more depressed if she stayed for the wedding.

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[Leah Clearwater]

"Seth's gonna stay with Mom." Leah said because that was what SHE wanted him to do. Seth wanted to go with them, but Jacob wasn't going to alpha anyone in to staying. "He is not going to re join your pack however, some betrays can't every be mended." She had ignored his other words about moving on and not seeing him again and what was not the best part.

Her snide remarks about betray were also double words, he betrayed her, then he betrayed Seth and Jacob in a way. He had planned on making them do something that went against everything Jake and Seth believed in. Leah, had not trouble with the order. Seth's heart had been out of the fight, Leah had no doubt that he would have lost the fight that day. If Seth had died . . . . Alpha order sucked, "Then again, Jacob never bosses us around. No one is gonna make Seth do anything, now."

[samuley]

Sam nodded his head slightly. "Are you sure he's staying, or is that what you want him to do?" Sam asked reading right through her. "I would never ask him to do so." Sam defended himself. She could talk all she wanted, but still she would be the one hurt at the end of the day. Sam would get over her word's Sam could crawl into bed with his wife, and love her. Leah would end up alone and bitter. Leah would never have anyone one to love, and Sam felt bad for that, but then again it was her fault. She had to let him go, had to move on and stop being such a bitch, then she would not be half bad. He would, or rather did date her. Sam said nothing to that comment. How well was that working out for Jacob? The whole not giving orders. Sam did not have a problem with it, there had to be a leader, and he was placed in this position. So he had to step up and lead, and that meant giving orders, so that's just what he did. That's just what he would do. He would step into the role of leader and lead. He was no cop-out. He was dealt a hand now he's playing with it. Jack just folded, gave up and let the cards fall where they may. At least Sam has some say in his life.

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[Leah Clearwater]

"I think I know Seth better then you." She snapped out. She knew Jacob would not force Seth to do so, but Sue Clearwater would. Seth was still underage, not 18, and Sue would make him finish school before jumping out into the world. Leah knew her mother enough to know how she would react. She would want Leah to stay but in the end, she would make Leah promise to call every day and let her try to find some peace. With Seth she would make him stay at home and wait before following Leah and Jacob around.

With everything she had to say, being said now--oh, not everything. "I am going to visit Emily in a few days. Get it over with, and tell her bye, before I the leech army gets here. If we live though it, I doubt I will around much longer then it takes to make them safe, and If I do stay longer, It ain't gonna be around La Push." To many bad memories. "I'll lie to her, tell her I made peace with everything and that I am just going to keep Jake from getting in trouble or something."