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[jacobblack]

The aftermath, was more or less than he would have ever dreamed. The love of his life, had gone and married a bloodsucker..as he'd always called them. Now he was trying to be nice, but being nice just wasn't what he wanted to be. He loved Bella and felt betrayed partially because she did not feel the same towards him. When he found out that she was pregnant, anger boiled up inside him....to the point he wanted to kill the child...thing inside her, and get rid of it. He knew the dangers of a hybrid, especially a vampire hybrid.

He'd been away from Bella for far too long, and so he was doing a risky aspect, this time....he'd disappeared shortly after Bella wed Edward, because it hurt him more than he could've ever dreamed. He felt as though he'd been cheated on the one....he'd always loved, always wanted to be with. Maybe he was being a bastard, but, he couldn't help the way that he felt.

Everybody's got something they had to leave behind, one regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time. There's no use looking back or wondering, how we could be now or might have been. Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go, I never had a dream come true, till the day that I found you. Even though I pretend that I've moved on, you'll always be my baby, I never found the words to say, you're the one I think about each day, and I know no matter where love takes me to, a part of me will always be with you.

Somewhere in my memory I've lost all sense of time, and tomorrow can never be, 'cause yesterday is all that fills my mind. There's no use looking back or wondering, how it should be now or might have been, this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go. I never had a dream come true, till the day I found you....even though I pretend that I've moved on, you'll always be my baby. I never found the words to say, you're the one I think about each day and I know no matter where love takes me to, a part of me will always be, you'll always be the dream that fills my head yes you will say you will you know you will.

You'll always be the one I'll never forget, there's no use looking back or wondering because love is a strange and funny thing, no matter how I try and try I just can't say goodbye. No, no, no, I never had a dream come true, till the day that I found you, even though I pretend that I've moved on, you'll always be my baby, I never found the words to say, you're the one I think about each day, and I know no matter where love takes me to, a part of me will always be, a part of me will always be with you.... The song ended right as he pulled up to the Cullen home.

Walking up to the Cullen house, he was a little apprehensive. He knew that it was dangerous, sure he was going into a house where there was a coven of vampires, but even though a treaty stood between them attacking one another, it did not mean that it couldn't ever happen. He wanted Bella in his life one way or another and he would kill the foul thing that was killing her. He had no reason not to, true Bella would never be his, but it didn't matter, as long as she remained alive, there would always be a hope, a dream for him. Without Bella alive, he'd surely die. He loved her that much and knew that she knew as much. Another reason why they hadn't been spending much time together. Today, after the aftermath...and the call he made to Bella he told her, he was coming to the house, but he didn't want any trouble. He was prepared if....need be to say goodbye once and for all. Another thing that troubled him was Bella became a vampire.

[Alice Cullen]

Bella was killing herself by choosing to keep this... thing alive and let it grow inside of her. Her stomac had grown enormously large and was so brused, it seemed like big ink stlotches covered her skin. But she had lost a lot of weight, for everything she ate, she would spit it half up. Luckly, they had just found the solution of feeding her blood, human blood. This worked well, bringing the shape and colour back to her face. It was torture to watch Edward, as he put on a smile for his wife as he watched her perish happily because of their creation. Ed was feeling so much more pain than Bella, even though she was the one whom's ribs were being broken.

Alice did not enjoy being around Bella much anymore. Not because of her physical state but because of how much the fetus rendered her blind. She did not get visions anymore, not unless she left into the forest or if the subject was none related to the fetus. Vampire did not get headaches, but Alice felt she did -- though she could not recall what a true headache felt like. Plus, the smell if human blood that filled the house was very tempting, especially to Jasper and herself, being they were the only two whom had actually lived off the different blood. This fetus was cause nobody any good at all. It only appeared to be making things worse.

Fed up with being cooper up indoors, Alice stood up off the stair she sat on and headed towards the back doors, but paused as she passed the front door. She caught the scent of wolf. Alice opened the front door and walked out only to find that Jacob Black was there. She closed the door behind her and examined the werewolf with darkly shadowed, chocolate brown eyes.

[jacobblack]

"I...know I'm not supposed to even step foot here, but my best friend is here, and I know that it's....a very trying time, but if that....if what's happened to Bella, continues she'll end up dying, something I know none of us want. How is she?" He asked as he was trying to remain calm, as the thing tearing Bella apart was a child, half human half vampire, a hybrid, one that should not have ever been created. It would've been just as dangerous if it would've been half human and half werewolf, but less so because werewolves did not feed on blood of humans or animals the way that the vampires did, they ate human food, much like the humans they found themselves near.

His panic had been a reason why he had come, not to mention the fact that Charlie had called Billy so many times out of panic. Bella had not gone home in a while, granted home was now with Edward, which in a way he understood, granted he may not have liked it. The little bundle of joy as Bella had put it, was killing her, ripping her apart, and how she could've been happy about it, he did not know. That thing was causing more heartache and stress for all who knew Bella and who truly loved her. He realized of course, that he may have just broken the treaty but as long as he wasn't doing anything against the rules, then he should be fine. Sam and the others may want him out of the pack for this, not that he would blame them, but he and Bella had been friends longer than he had been a wolf...longer than she'd been married to Edward or even been a vampire.

[Alice Cullen]

Alice crossed her arms across her chest, though her expression was a little off. "I do not thing you want to see her right now, Dog," She warned him. "It is not a pretty sight." And though Alice could care less about the wolves, this was a sight no one should have to see. The over grown stomac, splattered ink-like bruises, dark. Bella had barely any colour or shape to her face.

(terrible and short, sorry)

[jacobblack]

In many ways, he shouldn't have cared what condition she was in, he didn't care if he was a 'dog' as Alice had put it, but he wasn't going to leave without knowing what kind of condition she was in. After all, he loved Bella, and he would not give up until he knew what happened. "Her transformation's either already happened or will have to happen, due to the thing inside her, and I already know she's in danger, because like it or not I am rather close to her father and he's filled me in on what he knows, but since I know more about what she's going through, at least the dangers of it, than Charlie does, I think I have a right to see her. You may not like me, and I really don't care. Your oppinion, and that of your family's doesn't bother me, the only person....the only oppinion that matters to me, is that of Bella's." He said as his teeth normally would be showing and he would be glaring at Alice under normal circumstances, but he was going to try and be nice, if that was at all possible. His life was changing now more so than ever, and he would not be going anywhere any time soon, not until he saw the changes happening to Bella, and how she was.

Alice never did answer his question last time either. "You can call me anything you want, the name's Jacob, but I'm not going to call you anything other than by your name, as Bella told me that yours is Alice. She's even showed me pictures and everything. You can be mad at me all you want, I don't care, but even with the treaty as it stands, neither side is doing anything they aren't supposed to. I'm willing to put it all aside, especially under these circumstances. No matter what the other Pack members have to say. Which that, may get me in more trouble than even you could ever give me." He took a deep breath, as he looked at Alice.

He knew that last statement would get him in trouble with Sam and the others but he was willing to take that kind of choice, that kind of chance. Bella was worth more to him than they were, and that was a hard thing to admit, but it was true nevertheless. His life had changed the day he met her, and he could not see himself without her in it. Even if they weren't together, like he'd always dreamed, at least he'd be able to be her friend. He was worried about the repercussions of her transformation. The transformation, may cause Bella to hate him.

Alice was not worth fighting, none of the Cullens were, because as far as he cared, even if they were bloodsuckers, they weren't the kind that bothered him, as they only went after animals, like himself, but at the same time, they weren't going after humans, and since he and his pack were not the targets of the Cullens by nature, he didn't have to worry about it. He'd just have to grit his teeth and his emotions and try and be nice to them, as this time he'd be civil to any of them, anybody who would let him see Bella or at least let him in enough to know how she was doing, with the thing growing inside of her. The baby would be the end of their friendship, he feared.

[Alice Cullen]

Alice sighed in an irritated fashion. "Fine. There is, obviously, no way of convincing you that you should not venture any further. If you wish to feel more pain and hatered, by all means go in. You will not follow my advise, so I do not know why I even bothered giving it to you in the first place." This dog was going to see probably the most terrifying thing he has ever seen in his life when he saw how drasticly Bella had changed over the past week or so.

"It was very nice of you to do so to please her, but right now, I'm in no mood to be curdious to you, Dog. You only make this worse." Alice muttered, rubbing her temples. Though she could not technically get a headache, she would rather have one than have the complete blindness she was curently having.

(bad)

[jacobblack]

It was the worst feeling he got, he knew that Bella was happy here. But at the same time he knew he was more alone than ever, a feeling he'd had since she'd met Edward. But there was no way he was turning back now. He couldn't. There was something that kept him from doing just that and he had no idea why. Turning to look at Alice, he ventured into the house, realizing of course that he was the most unwelcome person to ever venture there. Of course, naturally he had been civil to Alice, which was very hard when she kept calling him a dog. What should he have done, called her a bloodsucker and made it worse for him and Bella's relationship, that is if they would still have one if she survived? That too was what made him worry more than ever.

He tried to find Bella based on scent but that did not work, because although the scent was familiar to him, it was strained due to the baby's influence on her. When he finally found her, yes, he was shocked to say the least but he wouldn't leave. He was scared more so about her safety than he was for his own. After all he knew the reprecussions of him being there. He knew that Edward would probably have his head on a platter for this, yes he'd been a jerk toward Bella, but that was because he hadn't been able to see how clearly Bella loved Edward. Yes, of course he was upset by this act, but he couldn't change it.

Bella was different, pale and yet barely her normal self, but since when is being a pregnant with a vampire's child ever normal? He couldn't stand that thought, but as he watched Bella in pain, it nearly tore his heart out. He wished that he could trade places with her, and that she and her baby would be alright, even though he'd never really liked vampires much, the young baby hadn't done a thing to him. He hated the child, though, mostly because of the fact it was causing Bella so much pain and he would have agreed to get rid of it, but he knew Bella would never go for it. Of course he knew naturally that once born, the child, like much of the family would probably despise him as well, just like the child's mother probably did right about now, since he hadn't been there for her since she got married. He really didn't like feeling so confused.

"I try to be curtious, and yet all they do is show me disrespect." He thought to himself as he watched Bella sleep, or rather, be in so much pain. The pain is something that was more than enough to disturb him. Seeing her in pain was dangerous in and of itself, because of the fact that vampires and werewolves do not like one another.